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Monday, June 7, 2010 Hey, this blog is extinct...but i guess some things you just cant say out loud... To whom it may concern, Im disappointed, hurt, angry and devastated all at once.. I do not know how to react anymore..Maybe im too stunned to say anything, too angry to comment, and too sad to pick myself up... Never have i felt this empty in my life...This hollow feeling is killing me softly and painfully...,I wished i had more strength...i doubt this post will ever be read by you so i guess this will be a forgotten post just like how im being forgotten day by day.... All i know is that everytime i get a reply from u, it means the world to me...But when u dont, i guess i'll cry myself to sleep.. The pain is real and only ALLAH has seen the buruk-ness of me crying...But i guess it stays with ALLAH..Big Boys dun cry, rite? What pains me the most is u giving up on this relationship...Never have i loved so much and yet it all ended on the pretext on not communicating...We could work things out but no, it had to end... I believe this crossed your mind for the umpteenth time..u keep asking whether i wanted this to end and i kept saying, 'have i ever said that?' but maybe that was a sign i failed to see that you just wasnt so interested as before, because if u were, we could have worked things out... There are bound to be quarrels and misunderstandings in a relationship rite? but y cant i say how i feel? y? why must i just wrap it up so u'll feel happy?? Thats called movies ar dramas.. what i gave u was reality... But i guess reality is always harsh..But they said love would pull you thru the darkest hour, so where was the love? I noe that hoping that u would come back is like hoping Israel and palestine will be friends...But theres still hope, rite? Im living on hope rite now., Hope that one day, u'll be ok to accept me again..Even if i have to live with one-answered replies, i'll grit my teeth and go thru it...simply because i love u and thats the only thing that matters... But i guess this is all i have left, Feelings that cannot be translated anymore... *You not only meant the world, you meant everything to me. But here i am feeling so hollow. But my prayers will always be with you. Remember, I LOVE YOU, always have and always will.. Friday, October 23, 2009 Finally, im blogging! Like it took me ages but hey, im finally updating so no harm done.... Actually i have so much to say out loud but everytime i sit in front of the comp, its facebook, facebook and more facebook....! Anyway, its my third nite shift rite now and damn im feeling the tiredness already, someone took MC and "lucky" me was on standby and voila, im called back after already imagining a good nite's sleep after hot horlicks! Anyway, i wanna talk a little about the disasters that have been going around our neighbouring countries...I have no Qualms about ALLAH showing his might as many muslims are slacking and it serves as a wake up call that the world is gonna end sooon... But what irks me is Humans....actually is more of the pre-disaster times.....because if you look at how easy the building and homes crumble, there is an underlying problem which began way back when builders couldnt care less as to where they build those homes, they couldnt care if the ground wasnt suitable or the material they use was cheaper and less stable than what they potray....You see, it may look like a small matter but in the bigger picture, more lives could be saved.. Anyway, i just wanna urge us people to do things honestly, especially those in the business line.... But those are just my thoughts... As for now im really getting used to being a medic and i guess over a period, u tend to get more composed and calm...And i like it, cos now, i go for ambulance calls full of confidence...that happens when u noe what to expect and how to deal with it... *For starters, pray 5 times a day, because tomorrow may never come.... Monday, August 24, 2009 Ramadhan came, left and now its back! Alhamdulillah...after months of waiting, we can finally embrace this blessed month... My Ramadhan so far have been a fruitful one...And yet a little challenging cos as a medic u tend to get angry a little easier when the patient is un-cooperative or abusive...so i guess mesti sabar banyak2! However i feel that these days, not many out there actually 'feel' Ramadhan in their souls..its difficult to explain this feeling bcos it only comes when u stop thinking when Ramadhan will end, do ur terawih prayers and read the Quran everyday, then i can say u will feel something different...And thats when u don't want Ramadhan to end... I think time now is extremely fast...we are already in the 4th day! of Ramadhan...For all the wait, Ramadhan will end as quicly as it came...So don't waste this Ramadhan or simply make it a better one than the previous years... All i can say is that our personal battle with our NAFSU is all that separates us from a good Ramadhan...Remember that the devil is locked away with chains so take this oppurtunity to prostrate urself before ALLAH and seek for forgiveness and HIS blessings... ANd if you do have any qualms or questions about this Blessed month, feel free to tag, email or comment me...InsyaALLAH i will try to answer in my own words so that its easier to understand... *Do ask for forgiveness from ur 1.parents 2.muslim bros n sis 3.neighbours not only during EID but especially during Ramadhan bcos if u don't im afraid ur Ramadhan will not be blessed...=) Wednesday, July 8, 2009 There's so much to blog about yet so little comes to the head once u sit in front of the comp... REally, the death of Micheal Jackson, the rise of Swine Flu in S'pore,The end of RED Thread n Fighting Spiders...And me not eating sushi yet...The birth of Furqan n Husayn... Anyway, I went to Mizah's(my cousin) place yesterday since it was my off day just so that i can see the 2 new additions to the ever growing family of mine, Furqan n Husayn...I tell u, those 2 were extremely adorable esp Furqan, who pretty much was fat, wanted to be carried and talked too and wanted a camera rite in front of HIM! I had a flu so i didnt go too close to Husayn who was 4 days old n Furqan was like 4 months old... Anyway, i've been noticing that whenever a celebrity dies, they get more popular and people start getting more devoted into showing their support, Like, WHAT THE HELL, get a life...Yes, michael jackson was a damn good performer, singer, dancer but now that he has moved on, he cant here ur screams of 'im your no.1 fan!' I mean its over, let it be...say a little prayer and let it go...its the best for anyone... And life at Central Fire Station gets very hectic nowadays what with the auditors coming on Monday...Emotions run high, people shouting at each other, things getting lost and any tom,dick or Harry would be blamed for it..Gosh.. As for the cases, they are getting wilder and more disgsuting! HAHAHAX...how about shit (literally) on your hands, vomit on your shoes and blood on ur pants??And did i tell you that there was once an old lady who got into cardiac arrest and yet we managed to save her! That feeling was indescribable.. A life saved is such a sweet moment... *Is it or is it not meant to be?? hmmmm... Saturday, June 13, 2009 Hello! I mean Salam to all!! yeah....a sudden urge in me to blog just came so im blogging! LOL.. SO far so good for me at Central Fire Station..., I have to admit, im starting to enjoy life at that station, time flies faster...and thats good...and the calls so far that I have been attending too aren't that bad as well....no Rabak cases...just the lukewarm ones.... And alot of people have said im skinnier, dunno how true but i sure feel very unfit nwadays! damn those fast food FATS!! Who in the world created burgers! Its like the MOST comforting food but once reality sinks in, u just feel so guilty eating it...But im already planning to get RAMLY burger tomorrow at JB! hahax.. So whats ur comforting food? food that makes u feel happy n contented...i wanna try it to see if it works! *I just wish i knew what to do in the future... Wednesday, May 13, 2009 You know what? Im frustrated... yeah...First and foremost, Arsenal sucks this season, no matter how i try to defend them from the MANure supporters, Arsenal still suck this season.... Its so excrutiating watching them play this season...I dun mind another trophyless season but i mind if the players cannot play well against the better sides...Thrashings by MANure and Chelski summed up Arsenal's season as a whole... IT HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (FYI, i've been supporting Arsenal ever since i was 8....) Next is the fact that I have to change staions twice in 3 weeks... First i have my attachment at Clementi Stn and then i might be posted to either Alexandra or Bishan Stn since Jurong Island is closing down! Damn, its like ur starting to get comfortable at the place and poof! u have to restart introducing urself, making frens, etc. Anyway, life as a medic have been fruitful, exciting and a learning experience..every calls see different cases, people etc. So far the worst cases was a road traffic accident which incidentally the guys big toe was missing! and the face remuk... And attending to cases where people are dead or dying are quite common.. There were attempt suicide cases, asthma, shock and many2 more la!!! hahahax I guess we medics have alot of stories to share....hahax.. *The gift of life is the best gift ever. Treasure it. Saturday, April 11, 2009 Salam people!! yeah, i have been utterly busy with my medical course and Alhamdulillah, i have been certified as a (capable) medic! Yeah, 6 weeks of sleeping , kena scolding and injecting friends, i have finally been posted to Jurong ISland Fire Staion as a medic! So far so good for me, the cases i attended to were not that bad, only one death case..so i'll be keeping u peeps updated with the most gruesome cases (don't worry), i wont leave out the juicy details.) hehehe... So i guess the blogskin change was inevitable, I could not be a firefighter so now at least i am a medic... As our motto goes...LIVE TO SAVE!!! *anyone needs my help?? call 995!!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Friday, March 6, 2009 HHHHHAAAAAALLLLLOOOO!!!!!! hehe...just had to do that... How have all of u been? Good? Stressed? disturbed?...Anyway...Anyway, yes i noe i have not been updating and all but i really do have a good reason and that is i have just recovered from a very mysterious fever... It all started last friday after coming home from camp....i went down with high fever of 38.6 and it got worst as the days goes by..On sat went to NUH, given lots of medication and 3 days MC from mon till wed... But on Tues afternoon..my condition worsen and thus was shipped to NUH again.. This time round, i had X-ray, blood test and 2 litres of drip forced into my body... And still under lots of medication, my condition is getting slightly better day by day. Alhamdulillah. this must go down as one of my worst fever ever...Until the doc suspect dengue but luckily its not. And yes, i have been in the medic course for 2 weeks.. Very exciting, theoretical, practical course..Mon is CPR test...Anyone needs Mouth 2 Mouth??? hehehe... kk,till the next post! love ya! *Never say NO or later when presented with an oppurtunity to pray..u just dont noe when it comes to help u one day...=) Saturday, February 14, 2009 And then its left with 4 days... Yes people, Mohammad Hafiz is going to complete his recruit life in NS in 4 days! 4 days!! 4 days!!! haha..i sincerely cant believe it but definitely looking forward to it...yeah...=)) I mean it all started back then after Hari Raye Haji and now its over...Like i said i would either get to be a medic or instructor so i'll accept whatever the verdict is...But praying for medic!! haha So the final days at camp are pretty slacked, not much to do as we have completed all the lessons and tests...I aced my First aid but not too well during firefighting test... Anyway, i just wanna say a lil sumthing to all my friends who have not entered NS.., PELAN PELAN kayuh! 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